Since I have no patience on figuring out boys.  I sent the following text.

Me: Can you text me Done if you are no longer interested in us and we will both know

Him: Done.

I knew it was going to happen after our last debacle and probably shouldn’t have put the power in his hands but it is what it is and now I can go back to drama with school and less drama with boys.  I started looking on match again today prior to this happening so I think I was pretty much done too. He told me before “I have nothing to offer.” I just thought it was the holiday blues.  I sent the same text previously but he continued to contact me so I thought it was just the moment, in the end it was just the truth.  I know that’s a red flag but maybe I just wanted it so badly I was willing to look over everything to feel something again.  Previously,  I wrote it would end because of me, but in the end I can say it truly wasn’t me at all.  I wasn’t the weak one or the eager one and took my time with it.  I didn’t close my mind to possibilities or shut down after the second date. I proudly can say I didn’t fuck it up. I am a better person for the experience. I really don’t feel the need to analyze it any further.  Plus I started to identify with the Mumsford and Sons song Winter Winds and the chorus during the winter break.

And my head told my heart

“Let love grow”

But my heart told my head

“This time no”


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